I hate them. I fuckin´ hate people. I hate how fucking fake they are. I am aware that by all definitions i am seen as a bad person, who makes bad decisons and treats people poorly and i´m fine with that. Actually, i´m FUCKING PROUD OF IT. I´m happy that those detestable, worthless misuses of human flesh dislike me, what bothers me is the fact that they pretend to be "nice" to me and then talk behind my back, WHY WON`T YOU SAY IT TO MY FACE? Fucking repulsive rests of failed abortion turned into whores that only care about sucking dick and trying to be "cool". You´re not cool, honey; you´re a fucking cheap prostitute. Get over yourself.
Only pedophiles in denial
Think she's anything worth while
Her infertile lifestyle will drive you wild
She's an alcoholic loser bitch
That likes to listen to shitty music
She drinks and smokes and tokes and chokes on dick
02|16|22
Everything´s so fucking boring, the imprisionent of my soul & my desires is corrupting me and sending me into a dimension of pure hatred an
and self centrism. My only true deep desire was to be free, of course, no one can TRULY be free in a society such as ours, BUT just a tiny sense of it would be enough. My lack of empathy and regard for others could be blamed by the fact that i never had a real oportunity to meet and actually create a sense of a relation with anyone. Nothing feels real to me, either. Since i can´t put myself to think that other people actually have a life of their own and live outside of my point of view; it may be my egoscentrism or i´m just fucking psychotic. All the time, everyday, i find myself daydreaming about living on my own & i have 3 years before being able to, but i don´t know if i´m going to be able to integrate into a college.
I have a lot of dreams, forensic cientist, programmer, philosophist, historian, movie director, writer... but my mental ilnesses make it harder for understanding & studying certain subjects. Everything i excel in was due to my passion in reading books, not any studies pertaining school. I´m great in philosophy since i´ve always read Nietzsche, Camus, Schopenhauer, Marx, Engels, Gorky, Kant, Jacques Lacan, Dorothy Day, Ayn Rand & many others during my entire adolescence. The same thing in regard to history, geopolitics and i´ve learned english on my own. On the rest, i´m below average most of the times.
I would rather not go
Back to the old house
I would rather not go
Back to the old house
There's too many bad memories
Too many memories there
02|17|22
God, this bitch is so fucking annoying. I can´t stand her trying to be like me, get your own fucking personality, attention-seeking whore. I can´t even look at her pathetic pitful face without having the urge to fucking rip her throat out. Get the fuck away for me or fucking kill yourself like you say you will trying to make me feel sorrow for her, I FUCKING DON`T, dumb slut. I fucking hope that worthless cunt die, and very fucking soon, can´t stand her in my fucking balls all day, gtfo with you alcoholic smoker bullshit, stop pretending like you´re cool when you humiliate yourself to be my side.
02|22|22
People are so fucking stupid and brainwashed, every time i think i´ve found someone who is "different" they end up being as witless as anyone else, susceptible to hooking up with easy whores & consuming alcohol for the sake of being seen as cool, GOD i fucking despise teenagers.
