I´ve never felt the urge to fucking die so badly as i do right now. I can´t handle not succeding, i can´t stand the fact that EVEN IF I TRY i NEVER GET THE RESULT I WANT & then other people don´t even fucking try and end up better than me. I just want to explode, but instead i have to sit still on a fucking chair pretending nothing is happening.
03|07|22
People are so stupid that it´s fucking hilarious. Bitch, do you really think i care about your boyfriend?? Literally just stfu, i´m glad someone will deal with you instead of me.
I´m feeling the need to talk about something positive AT ONCE so... i met someone who isn´t an absolute fucking idiot!!! Never thought i´d say that but here we are. Wanting to be at least a little affectionate with someone feels so fucking odd, but i guess that´s what it means to be attracted to a human being. But, being realistic my mom will probably ruin everything like she always does. Yeah, i really can´t have anything.
03|08|22
I`VE NEVER HAD SUCH A FUCKING TO KILL SOMEONE. I JUST WANT TO MUTILATE THAT LIAR WHORE UNTIL SHE´S NOT BREATHING ANYMORE. DUMB FUCKING SLUT. IF THAT BITCH OPENS HER MOUTH TO TALK ANYTHING MORE ABT ME I´LL BREAK HER FUCKING UGLY NOSE. I HOPE SHE ODS ON HER PILLS OR KILL HERSELF, THAT BITCH DOESN´T DESERVE ANY FUCKING EMPATHY, INTRODUCED ME TO DRUGS WHEN I WAS AT MY FUCKING LOWEST POINT, SHE DESERVES TO DIE.
03|13|22
The human being is really the most futile being that has ever set foot on planet earth. The childish nature reinforced by the majority is simply disgusting. While hierarchy in other species is measured through relevant attributes, human society benefits those who adopt alienation based on stupidity and ignorance. I don't have the slightest empathy towards alienated and personalityless people, whose use of existence is mirroring themselves in other futile beings, i don't understand how such a decision is frowned upon. If you put tourself in boxes in order to be socially accepted, you are a useless person who would be more useful fertilizing the soil.
03|25|22
School is fucking destroying my last fucking bit of humanity. I HATE teenagers so fucking bad. They behave as if they're 6, they talk SO FUCKING MUCH. I want to cut their tongues out and make them eat it. Those stupid whores make me mad just by looking at them, flat sluts who tie their UNIFORMS just to show their nonexistent ass, i stg if i stay at this school next year, I AM going to beat someone up. The muay thai is making my legs hurt more than usual, its prob bcs i'm filled w so much rage & descount a lil on that, it's saving me tbh...i would have dumped it in someone else if it wasn't for those tuesdays & fridays.
03|29|22
I AM going to go insane, i don't have the urge to even wake up, living is exhausting me so fucking bad, i hate having to talk, move, wake up, walk.. yeah i fucking despise being alive, i just wish i could end it all already. I was so fucking bored and tired that i cutted my thigh bcs i had nothing else to do, also, it makes me feel something at least (even if its pain.) I just want to stab someone, just for the sake of it, just so i could feel real.
I want to put a knife through that bitch's eye, i want to deform her face & make her live just to see how it's like not being "attractive" to men bcs thats the only thing that those whores care about, they're only fucking cum dumpsters, they wouldn't be missed. Natural selection at its peak.
03|31|22
Istg nothing would make me more happy than beating a bitch's face until she's bleeding rn. The principal is so fucking biased, she must've been a prostitute such as those disgusting cumwhores so she defends them. ALL that shit happens and people don't understand why i have the urge to kill someone daily.
Its just one of those days Where you don't want to wake up Everything is fucked Everybody sucks You don't really know why But you want to justify Rippin' someone's head off No human contact And if you interact Your life is on contract Your best bet is to stay away motherfucker It's just one of those days
05|31|22
I swear one day i'm going to kill this bitch, everything was going SO WELL but she HAD to ruin it just like everything else. She keeps fucking invading my privacy and treating me like a child.
